doubting pie

sometimes, i find myself questioning my own decisions. and i do find myself not trusting myself too much anymore because. i tend to be beyond stupid. i guess, we all deserve to be in places and times we choose to be, no matter how pitiful and tragic. if only i could turn back time, i would want to be 7 again, when i felt i was smartest and bold, and defiant in a brave, intelligent way.

or if i die tomorrow, i pray that i become a totally better version of me in the next lifetime.

then i probably would never find myself doubting me.