I have been totally negligent of this blog. I am not giving any excuse. I have so much going on with my life -- work, home front, friendships, trainings, dining out, going out, that the only thing I was conscious about is to imprint all those in memory (and learn the lessons it brings!)
Funny how social media has even made me lazier I think. I would rather read books (both traditional and electronic), lurk in FB and stalk people in IG. I haven't posted in those lately. Twitter is my to go vent-all and happy thoughts' place. It trains me to be succinct aside from giving me the feeling of real-time communication. I will not be surprised though if my tweets wane also. I am 39 and turning 40 in 9 months; All I want is to enjoy every moment and capture every thing in memory.
This, I guess, is part of my spring-cleaning. I know that I will reach that point of cleaning up my FB contacts, my Twitter "following" even my personal emails. When before I purge for the new year or by year-end, I found myself cleaning my files and things too often lately. I feel so grown-up and mature doing the "cleansing" of my life. It feels so appropriate, and in the end, it makes me so sure of what I want (and what I don't want anymore).
Lest be accused of being callous and cold (not that I care much about how I am perceived), there are a few experiences as of late that convicted me to be decisive and choose, no matter how difficult the actual deciding seems to be. No change is free of pain. No decision is easy to make. But change is inevitable and decision is a normal activity one does.
There have been times I second-guess myself. There have also been times when I question my own (past) decisions as these impact on my life now. While I want to punch myself and hope that I could turn back time, I am left with the Present. This is probably the reason why I want to bask in the NOW, no matter how fleeting it seemed sometimes, how trying, how horrible and frustrating.
One of the things I promised myself to learn every day is the Art to Let Go. Letting go that is honest and sincere, progressive and determined. Issues at home, mistakes in the work place, infuriating people, stressful situations have to be let go. But letting go is one, learning from it is another.
I also remember that I committed to be much more appreciative. It is always easier to see the lacking, the errors, the pangit and much more challenging to see the bright, the good and the nice. This, of course, does not espouse mediocrity and shallowness. This allows for un-complicating things and also for promoting the simple and simplified. I guess, being in Government, encouraged me further to lessen obscene expenses and make me more practical and yes, grounded.
My life is far from perfect. I still aspire for a lot of material things and fairytale scenarios. I have a long list of things that I want to do and the changes I want to push. Overall, however, I am at the Now, and this is where I need to be.
I remember what one of our training Facilitators said, that everything has a crack to let the Light pass through.
I guess, I have recognized those cracks already. The next step is for me to actually allow the Light to seep in.
Funny how social media has even made me lazier I think. I would rather read books (both traditional and electronic), lurk in FB and stalk people in IG. I haven't posted in those lately. Twitter is my to go vent-all and happy thoughts' place. It trains me to be succinct aside from giving me the feeling of real-time communication. I will not be surprised though if my tweets wane also. I am 39 and turning 40 in 9 months; All I want is to enjoy every moment and capture every thing in memory.
This, I guess, is part of my spring-cleaning. I know that I will reach that point of cleaning up my FB contacts, my Twitter "following" even my personal emails. When before I purge for the new year or by year-end, I found myself cleaning my files and things too often lately. I feel so grown-up and mature doing the "cleansing" of my life. It feels so appropriate, and in the end, it makes me so sure of what I want (and what I don't want anymore).
Lest be accused of being callous and cold (not that I care much about how I am perceived), there are a few experiences as of late that convicted me to be decisive and choose, no matter how difficult the actual deciding seems to be. No change is free of pain. No decision is easy to make. But change is inevitable and decision is a normal activity one does.
There have been times I second-guess myself. There have also been times when I question my own (past) decisions as these impact on my life now. While I want to punch myself and hope that I could turn back time, I am left with the Present. This is probably the reason why I want to bask in the NOW, no matter how fleeting it seemed sometimes, how trying, how horrible and frustrating.
One of the things I promised myself to learn every day is the Art to Let Go. Letting go that is honest and sincere, progressive and determined. Issues at home, mistakes in the work place, infuriating people, stressful situations have to be let go. But letting go is one, learning from it is another.
I also remember that I committed to be much more appreciative. It is always easier to see the lacking, the errors, the pangit and much more challenging to see the bright, the good and the nice. This, of course, does not espouse mediocrity and shallowness. This allows for un-complicating things and also for promoting the simple and simplified. I guess, being in Government, encouraged me further to lessen obscene expenses and make me more practical and yes, grounded.
My life is far from perfect. I still aspire for a lot of material things and fairytale scenarios. I have a long list of things that I want to do and the changes I want to push. Overall, however, I am at the Now, and this is where I need to be.
I remember what one of our training Facilitators said, that everything has a crack to let the Light pass through.
I guess, I have recognized those cracks already. The next step is for me to actually allow the Light to seep in.
2 comments:
Agree. Now is the only time that exists. Nice to catch up with you through your blog :)
Wow! Mature kung mature, ganu'n? Haha! Joke lang! This blog entry reminded of the things we talked about over dinner when I was in Manila! Can't wait to have another one with you! :-)
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