Of things you learn and re-learn every day

i guess my trip to DFA this morning signals the finality of that (married and now annulled) chapter in my story. and i learned (and realized) things earlier.

that i should tick "annulled" if it is one of the options in Civil Status. or else, i am single. however, i remember that i took a recent psych exam and the only choices i had were: single (never been married); married; widowed. i ticked single by mere deduction. i would no longer be true and factual if i picked choice 2 or 3.

that being a government official is a double-edged sword. often, it does not work to your advantage. case in point, the perks i have here, like a service vehicle, my own room, post-paid line --- are either delayed provision or functionally problematic. my room is the only acceptable provision but it needs some serious make-over. while i prefer to go minimalist, the furnishings are official in nature and should be readily made available. i still do not have a computer and phone table; thus, my laptop and local phone are all on my desk. thus, the additional clutter, which i do not like really. the vehicle assigned to me conked out in the middle of the road while i was going home after work. imagine, if i were driving it by myself? and i am this close(imagine an inch of a finger) to leaning towards just taking a cab (again!).

that my newest craze of fun memo pads and nice-writing pens make me (appear to be) a fun boss. of course, this helps especially if i have major edits or when i pose nosebleed-inducing issues. seriously, i want to provoke our staff to think and anticipate what questions i'd raise. it is one exercise that one learns over time.

that i stop wondering why people question my motive when i went back to government. seeing the money in my salary atm now made me doubt my move. LOL! oh well, there are those intrinsic and psyche rewards that you cannot even monetize, and i am reminded of my real purpose for coming back: to be a career executive and a real-life mentor (and not just pretend).

that my boys are the most loving and forgiving creatures this side of the planet. i know how difficult it is for them to be left behind when mama goes to work. that is why i am very tolerant when they go party-parteeh! when welcoming me home. and after the excited barks and wet kisses and the little nips and bites to my hand so i would pat them, they will be lazing around again, asleep (as if no welcome pandemonium ensued at home.) my nightly ritual with my boys: priceless.

that my (secret) mission is to churn all policy reviews and CSWs (on every thing, especially on matters not assigned on a regular basis but fall under our sectoral concerns). i do not normally adhere with traditions but i strongly believe that good practices are worth keeping.

that Filipinos have a nasty, rude habit of noticing weight gain even before establishing your degree of closeness or familiarity. the sad part is, i cannot always guarantee that i will not give an evil response. sometimes, rude deserves rude(r), venomous hirit.

that i couldn't care less how others perceive me so long as i'm doing my best at work, and i'm pretty happy with life right now.

that i miss doing my usuals, like chatting with my girlfriends online because i am too tired upon reaching home. the only thing that i am grateful for is how lucky i am to have understanding friends.

that i am blessed beyond my expectations, and i have God to thank non-stop!