if i were asked whether i'm prepared to die tomorrow, i would say, "yes, i am." we can even make it today but i'd rather spend today in solitude, in gratitude, and essentially in prayer --- praising Him for allowing me to live an enriched life.
i think, i have given my all and to everyone my every thing, and if i were to live another day and another after that, it'd be the same, i would still give more of me and take less for myself. some might see this as pure lunacy, others martyrdom. to me (and to those who know me fully well), it is just who i really am.
and i do not wish to apologize for being this selfless, sacrificing, generous to a fault, middle-aged drama queen.
i am happy doing all these --- giving my all, loving ultimately, pouring my best because i know that life is worth it, and the people around me deserve no less.
but when i'm done, and it's time to go, my heart will break a bit but i will embrace death.
because death is not an ending but the start of (my) memories to be remembered.
i think, i have given my all and to everyone my every thing, and if i were to live another day and another after that, it'd be the same, i would still give more of me and take less for myself. some might see this as pure lunacy, others martyrdom. to me (and to those who know me fully well), it is just who i really am.
and i do not wish to apologize for being this selfless, sacrificing, generous to a fault, middle-aged drama queen.
i am happy doing all these --- giving my all, loving ultimately, pouring my best because i know that life is worth it, and the people around me deserve no less.
but when i'm done, and it's time to go, my heart will break a bit but i will embrace death.
because death is not an ending but the start of (my) memories to be remembered.
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