Celebrating Thanksgiving Day

like Christmas, i think celebrating Thanksgiving Day should be every single day. i did not bother to check the history of the celebration but i am pretty sure that it boils down to one essential: saying thanks.  saying "thanks" or being thankful for just about anything is not usual and does not come naturally for some people, just like saying "sorry."  some find it hard to utter those words.  some say it often but do not mean them anyway (which i think is worse).  both "thanks" and "i'm sorry" should be heartfelt and genuine.  not saying is venial sin #1, not meaning it is moral sin #1.  of course, that is my own scale. (if you do not agree with my measurement, go make your own. *grin*)

i have a lot to be thankful for, and i know that i have not really been very verbal about these lately (especially in prayers).  i'm truly thankful that God has not directed a lightning bolt to strike me dead for being silent lately.  at times, i feel that i'm diminishing the true meaning of (my) prayer when i enumerate my intentions and proceed to 'thank you's' for all answered prayers.  i'd rather be silent (with hope that i will hear His voice. seriously, in my heart, i am more at peace when i pray in silence.)

if there is one thing that i am grateful for right now is, it seems that i am given what my heart desires.  when i think about it, there is nothing that i asked for that was not granted. i probably waited a bit (or for a long time) but there were no rejections, no NO's and NEVERs.  i have gotten used to waiting in joyful anticipation.  i have not dreaded an un-answered prayer, to which i am thankful for.  God knows how much i longed for a baby, and i am pretty sure that He knows how desperate i was feeling about it at some point in my life.  with His grace, i came to terms with not having been blessed with a baby (yet).  i found myself realizing that (it) will come in His time.  He did not say 'never' anyway.  what is important at this time is, there is no problem with my system, and i'm perfectly healthy.  i may be fat but internally, all my organs are functional and doing well.  i only experience fatigue and get bogged down by stress because of work, which (only) means that at off-season (read: un-hectic days), i am okay.  i do not think anything material that i have purchased or slaved for lately could top this. 

life is good, and i thank God for this.